May 7, 2016
Yesterday I was lucky to watch my oldest son turn 7. The overwhelming sadness I felt on this day was shocking. Something as simple as picking out a gift for my growing boy made me think about how horrible it is that I will never get to watch Mason open another birthday gift. As I watched Mikey giggle with delight at his party, I couldn’t help but wonder what Mason would have looked like at the age of 7. I couldn’t help but think of why this would happen to our family. I couldn’t help but notice that everyone else was happy, and I was consumed with sadness. The downward spiral of thoughts and emotions took me to a place I didn’t need to go. A place where Mason wouldn’t let me go. Then a light bulb went off. As a mother of two additional adorable children, I will celebrate their life. I will cherish every milestone. I will know how incredibly lucky we all are to have birthdays. Mason has taught me so much about life, love, and loss. He has taught me not to take this life for granted. As I look at tomorrow, I will not start with a clean slate. I will start my tomorrow with a crumbling slate; I will appreciate all my life’s imperfections. I will love deeper, laugh harder, and appreciate more. Please don’t read this and feel sorry for me. Instead read it and take action in your life, read it and start treating every day with respect and appreciation. Life is to short, start living.
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