June 11, 2016
Tomorrow, sweet baby Mason would have turned 2 years old. Last week, I would have been planning a birthday party for the cutest toddler I have ever seen. Instead of planning his party, I am faced with planning my survival. How will I make it through his birthday? How will my children make it through his birthday? The way I handle tomorrow will forever be engraved into my mind and my children’s minds. My actions tomorrow will be yet another test of my strength and grace. My plan for tomorrow is to celebrate Mason; we will release balloons with notes to heaven and sing him happy birthday. Mikey, Megan, and I will talk about him. We will giggle while telling stories and cry when we realize that we won’t have any new ones. We will spend our day remembering. My hope is that my family will stop and recognize Mason’s life and death on this day. My hope is that we will make a new tradition/ celebration that is more meaningful than any other holiday. Tomorrow, I will set the foundation for a lifelong tradition. Tomorrow, I will show my kids the appropriate way to celebrate and honor Mason’s life. Although the honoring of Mason doesn’t have to be consolidated to one day, it is a good place to start.
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